going to be really honest now.

recently I’ve been feeling disgusted with myself.

i don’t know if it is a girl thing.

or i actually have an eating disorder, I’ve had some people tell me that.

i weigh about 7 stone 9.

I’m 5ft2 which doesn’t help.

I used to be a lot smaller, slimmer.

and now i feel disgusting. 

and i hate it, every time i look at my figure i hate everything i see.

i hate the scars on my thighs, i hate the marks on my thighs, i hate my thighs, i hate my belly, i hate my tits, i hate everything.

so i don’t know what to do anymore.

fml

going crazy.

honestly, wish you’d realise something and start talking to me about shit,

erghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

i have no one to talk to about this,

and i don’t know what the fuck to do.

and if worst comes to the worst who the fuck do i get to talk to. 

and then every time something happens you get more bitter. and there is nothing i can do.

i don’t know what to do.

Want to move away.
Sick of Harlow.
Feel like I’ve pretty much lost all my friends.
I feel awkward as fuck when I see them.
Everyone’s changed and is different.
Icbf college tomorrow
I honestly cbf.
Feeling proper shit,
A lot of thoughts that I pushed away and attempted to forget about have flooded back.
Just want to sit and cuddle, smile a spliff and cry lol.
It’s so fucked that in less then a year everyone changes
Goes their own way,
People have just changed
People long you off for bullshit.
I’ve lost one great friend due to living in different areas hardly see him any more
Another person I drifted from so much when I see him we don’t talk.
One of my best friends from year 7 don’t see as his girlf is in uni and we don’t have enough spare time to see eachother.
Bullshit and drama caused so much distance between people.
I know nothing lasts forever, but I feel so alone.
I don’t know what to do.
I still have friends like my best friends but I feel like a burden.
Lol this time of year I’m normally really happy, but in one day after one conversation everything falls apart and I feel shit as fuck :(

however that wont happen.

being skint, and underage sucks….

however, it’s my birthday on the 31st, i will FINALLY be of age. and hopefully will have money :D

eeeeep!

About to try something new !
Ahhhh
Nervous !
25i or whatever it is…
Lets see how it goes :)

Im currently in search,
Of what makes me happy,
Feel slightly lost:/

My face is numb lolol, well some of it,
Feels so strange,
I know it’s there, but I can’t feel it,
But how often can you feel like the inside of your mouth,
Like I can touch it, I can feel its there.
Aha I must sound like a noob,
Oh charlie…

Right, so got a new bong today, and you know your normal bong has the hole in the back ( not sure what it’s called, but you cover it when you use a bong ) ok, so the one I have doesn’t have it, how do I use it lol! I feel so stupid for asking, but umm, does someone understand what I’m on about ? Help please :(